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I’ve experienced acne since age 19, and I like to say it was the only thing that could get a teenage girl interested in looking after her health 😅

Now as a teenager, I was very down-to-earth – didn’t shave my legs for ages, never touched makeup, literally couldn’t care less what clothes I wore (and I wouldn’t change that childhood for the world).

But… I noticed that I had a lot of shit in my space about beauty. I judged the heck of out women who cared about their appearance. In my mind, it made them vain, selfish, a bad person, a dumb bimbo.

Woaahh, right? But deep down, I did want to boys to think I was pretty, too. 

So here I was, desperate to have clear skin because I wanted to feel beautiful, but at the same time believing that if I care about how I look, I’m a bad person…

That’s some serious self-loathing shit. Freud would love it.

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One day, I went to see a dermatologist.

And what she said to me has been tattooed in my brain. It effed me up.

She asked me (what she thought was a harmless question), “have you ever not gotten a job because of your skin?”

And the floor shook beneath my feet. My mind spiralled. I was like, hang on…would people actually think I wasn’t worthy of a job because of the way I look?

😳 Do people not wanna hear my opinion because of my skin?

😳 Would I get picked last for a group project?

😳 Would no one hire me as their coach?

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A few years in I got hit with the spirituality craze (like most people do after their health awakening).

I listened to podcasts about limiting beliefs, read books about self worth, looked up shadow work journal prompts.

I realised I had been brainwashed into thinking that because of how I looked, I was somehow less worthy of going after what I want and putting myself out there.

👉 Learning about my Astrology Chart helped me see that I had some really big wounds around beauty and self-acceptance, and some huge fears about being confident owning who I am.

👉 Diving into the realm of Feminine Energy and Sensuality allowed me to release a lot of built up shame around my body, my sexuality and being a woman, especially through using dance for self-expression and self-touch for safety.

👉 Having mentors and teachers guide me in delicious, deep Self-Love Rituals helped me finally unlock the feeling of love and compassion towards myself – a feeling I’d never been able to find through affirmations or therapy or ‘talking myself into it.’

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And healing my relationship with my body? Well, it uplevelled every single part of my life.

🔱 I started to speak up more in groups. I took more risks putting myself out there.

🔱 My sex life improved because I felt sexier, safer in my body, more feminine.

🔱 I had more energy to pour in my passions because I wasn’t consumed with silently hating myself in the mirror.

🔱 I woke up excited to get dressed in a cute outfit and flirt a little at the coffee shop and smile at the checkout girl.

🔱 I started making decisions that were good for me instead of just everyone else.

🔱 I said no when I wanted to.

🔱 I said FUCK YES when I really wanted to.

And guess what – my appearance didn’t change. This confidence and self-love all came from within.

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The more women I talked to, the more I realised that every single women has shit in her space about the way she looks and what she’s worthy of.

Not just those that experience acne, but everyone.

I couldn’t shake the feeling that I’d been given this assignment – to learn how to love myself with acne (which seemed impossible to me 7 years ago) – so that I could help women everywhere feel 1000% liberated, confident and empowered in their bodies.

I never want another woman to feel held back or less than because of how she thinks her body looks.

I never want another woman to feel like she has to hide or dim her light.

I never want another woman to cry in the mirror wishing she were someone else.

Oof that was deep…here’s some light fun stuff.

In my free time, you’ll find me dreaming about the horses I’ll one day own, reading teen fantasy romance novels and listening to my favourite music genre ‘Divorced Dad Rock’ (it’s a thing).

I’m a Gemini Sun☉, Capricorn Moon ☽︎ and Scorpio rising, and a 2/4 Generator

I’m an INFJ

Hot almond milk cacao is my drink of choice, always

I’ve never worked a 9-5